Sigh

Note to self:

Don't always believe what you think. Sometimes our minds can be so screwed up due to so many varying reasons.

Only be so convicted to something you're sure about to prevent embarrassment... or... resentment.

my heart goes out to all you kuyas that i validate with during production...

Sometimes it makes me think if the consumers who buy our products actually appreciate the effort that was put just so they have bar soap to use or shampoo to clean their hair with...

In the Philippines, cosmetic production isn't as a high tech as people may think it would be.  There's a lot of human  contact.  Whether it be in the dumping the raw materials into the bulk water, transferring or filling the bulk into the packaging materials... There's a lot of human handling, sweat, muscle energy that is consumed. And that's just the actual production... Not even the product development and prototyping....!

I've been validating so much these past months which leads me to feel this emotional about this.

The effort that's put in the product versus how the consumer actually values it... and sometimes, more often than not, complains about it.

slave to foreign brands

I'm upset realising how much of a slave I am to international brands when it comes to clothing.

I've pretty much succumbed to the superficial comfort that retail therapy brings. It feels so wrong for me to say this but what the heck... it's a real emotion that bothers me.

All the stress I feel from the sources of stress in my life feels like I have a justified reason to find solace for a few minutes in the embrace of beautiful superficial things.

It's wrong. Must substitute it with something more meaningful and has better value.

cruel day is so friggin cruel to me

40 minutes of noisy crying...
a cursing, ranting blog post...
deleting that cursing, ranting blog post...
10 minutes after all these..

I'm fine.

Back to friggin regular programming.

Goodbye cruel day!!!!