obsession

i'm currently obsessed with coffee... dresses and corrine bailey rae.

unwind

Justrina's after party :)

with good friends...

til the next wedding..!

struggling in faith

Lord,

I'm sorry.

Please help me seek You more and be more faithful. I feel like I'm cheating on You.

Please lead me to the right direction. The path that You approve.

photo from Pinterest.com

sacrifice

Did I do the right thing not giving you up for 40 days?

I'm definitely getting confused.

sunday dressing

OOTD once again...

dress: forever21
cardi: ukay ukay
shoes: VNC
bag: etienne aigner
headband: trese

I went to Carlos Celdran's Walk This Way Tour today...

That's where I went..

I think all Filipinos, especially the ones overseas should go take part of this tour because it explains a lot how we became the Filipinos that we are today... Centuries of brainwashing, conditioning and misguided leadership.

Happy thoughts.. happy thoughts!

homicide?

oh no... i accidentally killed Reby with my little sister's umbrella in Fort Santiago...

grey

OOTD post

dress: pratunam market
bag: liz claiborne
shoes: zara
belt: forever21

silly

silly moments with my soul sister.

with friends around I feel like life is easier.

I don't think I can exchange her for even millions of dollars...

mess

What am i doing?

oftentimes i find myself doubting my capabities.

Sometimes i also ask myself if im the right person to be doing this certain responsibility.

Should i be doing all these things at the same time?

Am I under too much pressure that i impose on myself because i hold a great responsibility and i feel insecure about it because of my young age?

i dont like sounding like i dont appreciate where i am right now because im definitely blessed...but there are just certain things that eat me up having to deal with responibility and recognition.

This is driving me nuts.

Trying to hit targets in weight, formulation, helping out other people, bucket lists, family ... this is like a recipe foran emotional disaster.

it just dawned on me

aha!

that one time he said he liked me.. he was probably drunk.. or high..

i'm so stupid

time

when you say 10am... be sure to be here at 10am... if you set an appointment and you get here at 11:30am or later... you're friggin screwed up to think we'll still accommodate you. a lot of things are put on hold waiting for people.

time is friggin gold.

sunday

Another outfit post..

This is for going to church and chilling/movie with my friends..

dress: forever21
shoes: aerosoles
bag: etienne aigner (vintage, it's my mom's when she was young)
bangles: forever21

Another photo with camina coz our dresses look similar.. haha

having yogurt... wheeeeeeeeeeee!

party

another outfit post..

this is for a night out. Reby's birthday celebration..

Super fun wow philippines jeepney party w/ built in karaoke and 7th high.

dress: forever21
belt: platinum mall thailand
shoes: zara
bag: h&m

thoughts

lately I feel like i've been having an epiphany of sorts..

Like coming to terms with myself... sort of like a journey to self-discovery. It's hard to understand but at the same time so interesting.

I feel like I'm gaining a confidence that I've been trying to discover all my life.

photo from Pinterest.com

trying

From Pinterest.com :)

dressy

I really like my dress today.

dress: h&M
shoes: zara

princess

I just realized a girl will never know how well she should be treated unless someone shows her...

(photo by Sabrina Karas via deviantart)

I HATE TOSH

Random dinner on a random night like tonight...

So it's CSI night and it's also Valentine's Day!

I don't have anything to say but, I extremely dislike the Old Spaghetti House. Aside from mediocre food, the most annoying part is the service.

Sigh. I hope you just disappear.

momentum

how do i get back to the daily grind?

it feels like i'm inside a car running 120 kph and the brakes are broken so i have no choice but to jump off...

layover ra-ra-ramblings

These stuff I actually jotted down in my notepad so don't mind the time differences.




February 10, technically 11 in my local destination time. Instead of sleeping all throughout the 11.5 hours from Los Angeles to Narita, I watched Like Crazy. A movie recommended before but haven't really gotten the chance to watch so I was pleasantly surprised I found it in the selection.

I was crying and dozing off towards the end of the movie so I had to rewind it.


This California trip has been a revelation. It showed me a lot of things including how well I can be taken cared of. It was such a different experience for me having someone taking care of me. Didn't matter that it was just a platonic friend.. It just showed be how nice it could be.

Someone driving you everywhere, excited to take you around, pat your back when your too drunk and throwing up, clean up the mess with you at the crack of dawn, get my dress exchanged at forever21 boz of a missing button and getting asked by the sales person if the dress fit him or not, help me check in and carry my luggage and actually try to negotiate with the woman at the counter if I can have a different flight, etc.

Thanks, Matt. I really appreciate it.


So yeah.. movie is finished, attempted to watch the Three Musketeers but ended up falling asleep..So I'm sitting here..Seat 33A crying my heart out just thinking about Mikel and Lily in Buena Park. I could really live somewhere else right now. Am I crying because I'm towards the end of my period or this is genuine emotion?

5:05 hours to NRT

Wishing I could blog. I missed the snacks here at the plane coz I was asleep. So Theo & Philo chocolate saved me from hunger.

5:00 hours to NRT

Random tears again for Buena Park kids.. Korean lady beside me must think I'm crazy..

4:57 hours to NRT

I don't think I'll still be able to sleep. We'll see...

In Narita airport.

Fought the urge to buy more Vivi's, CanCam's and S Cawaii's.. My carry on is heavy enough as it is because booking with Delta only entitles me to one check in! Felt like a damsel in distress twice because I couldn't put my luggage at the overhead compartment, 2 helpful dudes lent me a hand. Thank you! Kindness still exists!

On the other hand.. Japan's so full of vending machines.. but I can't buy a single drink.

I went to the store to get a drink coz they're selling em for a dollar... But they don't accept quarters. So I just ended up thirsty not wanting to break my bills..

Sitting waiting for boarding.. Had to lift my feet up coz they're friggin bloated..

That's the only thing I hate about traveling.

On the plane from NRT to ICN...

0:36 minutes to ICN

Listening to Michael Buble's All of Me...
Toss up between Azure Ray's album vs Michael Buble's.. Messy emo feelings vs positive prince charming music... Let me be idealistic tonight.

I think I beat all the scores in the Solitaire thingy...

0:29 minutes to ICN

All We Ever Say is Goodbye - John Mayer

"I can't keep running after yesterday.."


0:22 minutes to ICN

Perfectly Lonely - John Mayer

0:17 minutes to ICN

Friends, Lovers or Nothing - John Mayer

"there can only be one
We'll never be in between so give it up"

Lovely clouds!

This is where I am right now... emptiness..

So I'm passing time with 치건오빠...

I slept a bit...

So now I'm hungry...

And skyping with Ate Wow and Mic... That's it for now...

heartbreak

I don't wanna leave you, Ate Wow

abandoned

i feel lonely.

you leaving me here in california.

best and worst

Saturday night hanging with the boys..

cheers.

mic

matt

mim

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.... the worst hangover but best pool game ever.