People may not understand but I threw Josh a bachelor's birthday party since it's going to be his last birthday as a single guy.
I just felt like celebrating the life of the great guy that he is who committed to marry me and make me a very happy woman as much as he possibly can. He deserved to feel special on this momentous time of his life. His last year as a bachelor.
I did not ever imagine I'd be living my life in 2018 planning a wedding and 2019 actually walking down the aisle. I honestly believed that I'd live my life alone with 10 cats.
Somehow this weekend made me look back to the 2 surreal years of being with him. Being loved by him.
32.
We'll be marrying at 32.
We were 30 when we met. Not expecting much from our first encounter. Who would have thought less than 2 years into the relationship we'd find each other engaged.
Choice.
I made a choice to love him. He was not void of the warning signs I'd usually get from guys who could potentially break my heart. However, one fateful afternoon, I decided I would give him a chance.
He had a good relationship with his family which I felt was representative that he was a decent person. He talked about his work a lot, not negatively. Which made me feel he was an honest, hardworking person. He was a geek, asking if I'd be interested in attending a Yule Ball that coming Christmas season in 2016. I found him interesting. Every time I went out with him, he made me feel like all his attention was on me.
I am just grateful and thankful. I never expected to be loved in the way he loves me. Before him, I've gotten used to the feeling of never getting a 2nd date... or mixed, jammed signals from guys I've dated. Always feeling inadequate as to why it never worked out.
Now I know why. I had to trust the heartbreak, I had to trust the wait.
I was getting myself ready for the ultimate romance of my life. Not like the ones that I imagined and read off from the romance novels I loved to indulge in. It was the type that just crept in... It was not fireworks and huge gestures. It was mundane, real life stuff which is why I think it's special.
He makes me feel life by how much support he gives me. He never gets tired of attending my speaking engagements even when I feel like he's already memorizing my talking points. He always makes time when I tell him we need to spend time with my family. He goes overtime during moments I have no choice but to have a late night in the office. He plays with my nephews and nieces and is always an awesome entertainer and uncle to them. He reaches out to my brother and sisters whenever he can to make me feel like he's making an effort to be close to them.
I'm looking forward to a life with him.
I threw him a party because he makes me a very grateful, blessed woman every waking day of my life.
I'm a simple girl with only two dreams in life - the dream of being loved and the dream of making my own family.
I love you. You are the ultimate love of my life. Thank you for being you.
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